Happy birthday to me today. I'm 48. And yes, I have a 9 year-old son. I got started late, what can I say? Well the day has already started off right.....or wrong. My beautiful son, sweet and innocent presented me with a lovely birthday card, that he actually picked up yesterday while we were shopping for my mom. I pretended not to see it, even though I paid for it. Approximately an hour later, my son turned into a psycho-child acting like he had some mental disorder. He would not take his Adderrall and ran all around the house to avoid me coming with the spoon and water. He can't swallow a pill yet.
It sometimes takes every ounce of me NOT to hit him harshly across his little cute head. And here we talk about discipline. Do we or do we NOT spank our children in this day and age? I say yes, by all means, whatever it takes to get them to respect and listen to you. The schools, and justice system, however, will tell you it's child abuse. The children are taught this in school and think they can "call the police" if we hit them. I say, "go ahead and call them, because by the time they get here, you're little *** will be in the hospital already!!!
I wonder if I'll get a cake today from any of my family or friends? I hope so. I love cake. And I need a break!
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Saturday, November 28, 2009
How It All Began..
It's not my fault....really. I created a website which "took off" and became very popular. Essentially it brought income into the family which we needed. The "ex" began to feel neglected, and keep in mind we had a new baby in the house. In my own defense, I was working full time at a large financial corporation 40 hours a week, came home, cooked, cleaned, took care of my child, worked on the website. By 10 p.m. I was mentally exhausted. There was no time left for myself or him. I suppose I don't blame him for leaving, but it's the WAY he left.
Abandoned me and my child for 3 days. We didn't know if he was alive or dead. He never bothered to call my son in three days. My child's at home crying because he hasn't seen his father. So typical. When we finally got him to call us back after threatening legal action or calling the police to report him missing or over abandonment, he finally called. He said only that he "needed time to think about what HE needed to do."
Two weeks later, I find out he's living with another woman. They eventually got married and had THEIR own child. Thanks alot. It never amazes me how people can just leave a family because they don't want the responsibilities, but then walk right back into the same situation. Ever since, we (me and my son) are still alone, still without as much money as we all had. I did manage to buy a pair of new $13 shoes for my son today from Walmart. He was so excited he said "they look like skate shoes mommy" which is all that mattered to him. Little does he know they probably won't last through Christmas at that price.
Abandoned me and my child for 3 days. We didn't know if he was alive or dead. He never bothered to call my son in three days. My child's at home crying because he hasn't seen his father. So typical. When we finally got him to call us back after threatening legal action or calling the police to report him missing or over abandonment, he finally called. He said only that he "needed time to think about what HE needed to do."
Two weeks later, I find out he's living with another woman. They eventually got married and had THEIR own child. Thanks alot. It never amazes me how people can just leave a family because they don't want the responsibilities, but then walk right back into the same situation. Ever since, we (me and my son) are still alone, still without as much money as we all had. I did manage to buy a pair of new $13 shoes for my son today from Walmart. He was so excited he said "they look like skate shoes mommy" which is all that mattered to him. Little does he know they probably won't last through Christmas at that price.
Beginning to Follow Me..
Thanks Kathryn! Wow, my first "follower." I'm new to this whole blogging thing, but I see this as being an outlet for my accomplishments, my frustrations, and just...when I gotta get it "off my chest" but don't want to lash out at anyone purposely. Tomorrow is my 48th birthday! Of course, I would love to buy myself an iPod Touch just for fun. Of course, I'm walking around with a wad of cash and need to save it for rent. I guess rent does come first. Sighs.....
New Year...New Me!
You know, I'm very creative, I've made jewelry, I've made other things, jewelry, and jar candles and tealites. Why is it that I always wait too late to think about making things to sell for Christmas presents? I think to prevent myself from fretting over Christmas again, I'm going to adopt a new "me" plan in 2010. Part of that has already started..I've been able to increase my salary by $4.00 per hour in this industry I'm now in in just under 2 years so that's promising. On the way to a better life hopefully...
My car will be paid off in less than 5 months so that's a huge thing for me, and I'm excited about that! I have a new apartment, a new job I love. These are all great things so I feel good about going into 2010 in a little better shape than I have been in. I really miss my candle making so perhaps once I get some bills paid off, I can buy supplies to begin making a stock of candles to sell next Christmas.
I welcome comments and feedback from other single parents who've struggled, won, and lost some battles, I think support is a great thing!
My car will be paid off in less than 5 months so that's a huge thing for me, and I'm excited about that! I have a new apartment, a new job I love. These are all great things so I feel good about going into 2010 in a little better shape than I have been in. I really miss my candle making so perhaps once I get some bills paid off, I can buy supplies to begin making a stock of candles to sell next Christmas.
I welcome comments and feedback from other single parents who've struggled, won, and lost some battles, I think support is a great thing!
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