Great Start.....Angry Ending...

Today started out so great. It's my mom's birthday. Me and my son went to have lunch and shop with my mom and sister.  Everything was fine, and we were home by 12:30 p.m.  My son played outside all day, I went and visited a friend while she worked.  Later in the afternoon my son said he had $4.00 in his pocket and he wanted to buy me a birthday present because tomorrow is MY birthday..

We walked across the street to the Walgreens, we looked at things, and low and behold, he had misplaced his $4.00.  Don't know where it went, he lost it somehow and he got extremely angry.  We walked home, he kicked every sign on the way, kicked gravel and slammed the door when we got home.  It was everything inside me to keep me from slapping him up side the head.  When I asked him to stop acting like that he back talked me with such an anger in his eyes. Sometimes when I look at my son, he is an innocent 9 year-old boy, so sweet and so cute.  Other times I feel like I am looking at a psycho-like multiple personalied child.  How can he go from sweet to demon-like in less than 2 seconds flat???  It's called ADHD.

Meds help, but unfortunately when we're strapped for money and trying to get by on every penny from one paycheck to the other, we have to also "stretch" the meds...meaning that on the weekends we won't take them, or on long holidays we won't take them either.  It's sad and it's not fair to my son especiallyl when it makes HIM feel like he's cringing inside changing from one mood to the other but we don't have a choice.

Insurance from the old job runs out on November 30th.  Insurance from the new job doesn't kick in until January 1st. Sighs.....I really hope that 2010 is a better year for us.